Burn

I’ve now been told that…

…it was good that I was around, because it kept him from going crazy with just the animals.

and

…it was good to have me around to play so many games of the word game.

I sort of never want to date again.

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too little, too late

I ruined everything, just like I always do.

I had another post written,  but that has now been published as private, because I don’t think I can handle putting my heart out there. Not in an identifiable way.

 

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Ch-Ch-Changes

I’ve been pretty upset lately, and not only that, I have been feeling very guilty. I know it’s inappropriate, but I hold myself nearly 100% responsible for the demise of my relationship and keep thinking “What if…” and “If only I had just…”

I can’t change the past, but hoo boy, do I wish I could.

I’m trying really hard to see this as an opportunity for myself. We’ve broken our lease, and I’m staying with my Mom and StepDad for now. I gave my notice at work. And I’m making preparations to move to Edmonton on Labour Day weekend (incidentally, this is also my birthday weekend).

I’ll be staying with my best friend and her husband (and two dogs, two skinny pigs, and hedgehog) for at least the first month, with visits at both my brothers’ houses. I’ve started looking for jobs.

I just never really expected to make the move out of this city without my Pirate, and that’s just adding a little bit extra to the heartache I’m already feeling.

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